For all the Mothers

Let’s get this straight.  I am not a Hallmark Holiday kind of girl.  I’m the girl who tells her boyfriend not to buy her anything for Valentines day and actually means it.  I believe that you should be kind to the people in your lives on a consistent basis and therefore not need a national holiday to remind you to do this.

poppies

Poppies – my Mothers favorite flower

Mothers day…  as it has never been a holiday about me, it’s not one that I have spent my life completely ignoring.  I traditionally bought my Mother a card and a little something to mark the day as I’m sure most of you did also.

I was raised in the UK and they celebrate Mothers day in March.  When I moved to the USA and my Mum was still in England I could never remember the day and the May date just seemed silly to us and thus the expectation dropped and we agreed to stop bothering with it altogether.  That said I feel that there is a twinge of disappointment when I fail to deliver.  I don’t think that she realized that my being allowed to forget it for her enabled me to move past the pain I felt of it not being a celebration for me too.  Selfish I know but infertility can make you feel this way.

Of all the Hallmark Holidays I feel that this can be the most painful for so many people for so many reasons.  Maybe you’ve lost your Mother, never had a Mother or long to be a Mother.  It’s so much easier to let the day slip past without commemoration than to wade through the aisles of cards with their sentimental messages.  I get it.

Now I am on the other side.  I am a Mother (finally!) and I still don’t feel the urge to dash out and purchase the most gigantic floral arrangement that money can buy.  I do however have a huge appreciation for my own Mum and the things that she has done that have allowed me to fulfill my dream of being a Mother.

As a Single Mother by Choice I had to do a lot of planning before taking the leap and having a child on my own.  I work an atypical schedule.  Daycare isn’t an option as I don’t start work until 4pm.  Paying a babysitter would have been more of a strain on my finances than I could have handled.  My Mother said she would gladly watch the baby whilst I worked.  Godsend!

I had done 2 rounds of IVF and experienced a miscarriage when we put my Mothers house on the market and started looking for suitable properties.  My Mother also cares for her elderly Father which added another dimension into our house hunting process.

 

sunset stock pic

Finally we found the perfect house.  A place with a separate in-law apartment that could be converted into a 2 bedroom house.  We purchased it, did a huge renovation and 3 months later I was at last pregnant with my son.

 

It had been a huge leap of faith.  I knew that the living arrangement wouldn’t suit me if I were to remain childless.  I was at a point where I didn’t believe I would ever have a child of my own. Before we bought the house, I was maxxed out on loans.  Luckily for me, my debts were all rolled into the new mortgage. This enabled me to take out another loan to pay for that last, final treatment (the one that worked!)

sandwich generation

My Mother with her father and my son. Can you say sandwich generation?

If it weren’t for my Mothers own sacrifices to care for her elderly Father and to offer to care for my (at the time) future child, I don’t know that I would have ever been able to do this on my own.  I say that I would have found a way – but would I?  I guess I’ll never know.

Mothers day has a different meaning now and I’ve started buying cards again, I’m even going to buy flowers and a little gift from my son so my Mum feels truly appreciated.  Without her, there would be no us.

As for me?  I have everything I need.  Smiles and giggles are the perfect gift from my little guy this Mothers day.

So to all of you, especially those of you who are struggling, I send you light and hope and wish you a Happy day.

7 thoughts on “For all the Mothers

  1. What a great outlook on motherhood! Fortunately, my husband and I had no trouble conceiving my son, but when listening to stories of infertility, the long process of adoption, miscarriages, and unconventional methods of becoming mothers, it helps me not to take my role of a mother for granted. Thank you for shedding light on the truly important things this Mother’s Day.

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  2. I love this, such a sweet post! I had no idea the UK celebrated mother’s day at another time. But it’s great that you find ways to celebrate and acknowledge your gratitude for your mom everyday !

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  3. I was never to huge on mother’s day as well until I had my daughters now it feels like a second birthday lol your story is inspiring you never gave up and that’s awesome nevertheless I hope you have a amazing mother’s Day love

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  4. I agree with you completely, I feel so weird for possibly being the only one who wouldn’t mind not getting a gift on mother’s day! I’m all for appreciating but I don’t think it has to be in monetary gifts. Loved reading your story and plan on getting in my share of giggles this year too!

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  5. Great post! We’ve always celebrated mother’s day but I will admit after becoming a mom myself I put more into showing my mom how much we appropriate her

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  6. Oh, this is such a lovely post! I’m not a mum myself, but I can imagine it gives you a whole new perspective on things. Even just through the process of growing up, I’ve begun to appreciate even the simple things that my mum spent her time doing, like cleaning up after all of us all the time.

    Thank you for sharing.

    Ruth | http://www.ruthinrevolt.com

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